Saturday, March 29, 2008
what's the point of dressing up for somebody who wont be there?the point is, there's no point at all. haha.
♥ my red umbrella
14:51
Friday, March 28, 2008
poor ray is sick.
he has been working 8.30-6pm everyday, 5 days a week at far far tanjong pagar.
and he didnt even want to take MC today because of the opportunity cost. (lol i sound like an econs pro)
but he's still going on the shopping trip he promised me last week! weeeso for that, and the fact that i was the one who spread the virus to him (LOL), im going to treat him Tori Q for dinner tmr!although its not very expensive.. and im the one who feel like eating it actually.. but it's the thought that counts right? hahahha!but i dunno if he'll be up for it cos he'll probably still be feeling unwell tmr.. so we shall see.on another note, i've never been good at counselling depressed people, i believe.im not very patient, and i hate it when my point doesnt get across; which of course, isnt the other party's fault because he/she is depressed to begin with. so.. im really sad that i cant be of any help.and sadder that i feel irritated when i keep having to repeat myself.and saddest when i think about how the human heart can be so cruel, and yet fragile at the same time.BIG SIGH.my brother is coming back on the 10th of april, for 9 days!hope he'll see the light soon.and in the meantime, i hope and really wish, that a miracle will happen.
PS to Grace Leong Peiling (because you dont have a tagboard lol.): you and timothy look really blissful in that photo-jigsaw! you two are practically glowing with radiance! hahahha! =)
♥ my red umbrella
01:42
Thursday, March 27, 2008
i hate the fact that it's so hard to trust someone once he/she has hurt you.
and of course, the fact that the relationship will never be the same again.
maybe i'm saying this because im a third party now..
but really, it saddens me so much.
and it sucks knowing that there's nothing i can do at all to make things better...
i wish time could turn back, so i could be a better sister earlier.
end of my school term, beginning of holidays..
end of a relationship, beginning of misery.
♥ my red umbrella
02:37
Monday, March 24, 2008
2 papers down, one more to go!fell sick on saturday and couldnt study for my sunday paper at all. sighhhope i'll still manage to pull through with my last minute 2hrs+ of studying..
YAY im going genting in april!
a pity my brother wont be joining us.. but a special guest is gonna take his place though! LOL *excited*
oo and my brother's application for a student exchange program in july was approved.
in other words, he'll be spending his month-long holiday in july/august IN HONG KONG!!!!!!!!
unbelievable.
who applies for student exchange when you're already overseas anyway?!
oh well.
i have an ugly wart on my left knee. ughhhh
♥ my red umbrella
12:33
Monday, March 17, 2008
things have been busy busy busy lately, and i have 3 upcoming exams + 2 assignments due over the next 10 days.not too good, but i know it'll be over soon before i know it and then it'll be my month long break. yay!so...i missed jackyln's 21st birthday party which was held last saturday.im sorry my dear, i really am.wish i could've been there, to make you feel less nervous about being the centre of attention! haha..hope you had tonnes of fun anyway, and that you did heed my advice to dress up like a princess!tell me all about it when we meet up okay? i want to see all the photos taken too =)well, things didnt turn out the way i had expected it to have.the mood wasn't there, the food wasn't good and prices were over the roof.if anything turned out right, it was probably the ambience of the 2 places we visited...maybe i should've put in more effort in organizing events for the night. sorry guys!initially i didn't understand what you meant by "i think i've grown up" and i was baffled.
but now i do.
and i don't quite know what else to say at this point of time, so i guess i'll leave it as that.
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it feels like i took a glimpse into the possible future today... and i'm already looking forward. =)
♥ my red umbrella
19:49
Monday, March 10, 2008
i'm afraid there's only so much i can do.my To-Do list keeps adding up this month, and im getting nowhere. i need to do this, i have to do that, i must do everything else...i spend hours slouching over the computer for a reason no one else really cares.but i do it nonetheless, because it matters to me so much. so much that i get so frustrated by my inability to do it i almost wanted to crack my head open.i wish i were smarter.or more street-smart.or at least, have a wider social network with all sorts of connections...
i cant even use photoshop.
and my creative nerve must have gotten disconnected from my brain because nothing comes out good.
sighh.
♥ my red umbrella
20:32
Saturday, March 01, 2008
my days have been filled to the brim so far. waking up at 11-ish, going to school, coming home, surfing the net until 2-3am then sleep.. and the cycle goes on. i've been very, very busy with school and a lot other plans, but for the very few times in my life, i feel that im in total control of my life because i decide where i want to go.i dont go to school because i have to, but because i want to.im not like some... rich ignorant kid studying in a private school, who skips lessons as they deem fit and trusting completely that at the end of the day, no matter what kind of shit they get into, their parents will wipe their asses for them with fifty dollar bills. --- on a totally random note, my motto for the year is "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger."cliche i know, but i really feel like im living it.a couple of years ago, when i was in secondary 3-4, i thought i was going through hell.my A and E maths teacher was like The Devil from below, giving huge mountains of assignments, endless detentions and he would not hesitate to shame you in class in front of 40 other students when he feels like it.only BPians from the same batch would know and really, i thought i will die while doing maths. i used to cry alone in my room while slogging Add. maths sums because it was well past my bedtime of 12.30am and i still had 2 impossible exam papers to struggle with.but well, my efforts paid off and now im earning extra pocket money with it. i feel soooo good when im able to teach my secondary 3 girl tricky A-Maths questions!hahahha okay i think this is totally random.
i shall go sleep now because there is this person by the name of Zhen Rui who likes to stalk my blog and then scold me for blogging in the middle of the night when i told him i was going to sleep. (i was waiting for my hair to dry! okay, i was blog-hopping too, to get updated on my friends' lives...)
---please visit mydressingroom.livejournal.com!
♥ my red umbrella
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