Thursday, March 29, 2007
daphne's sick today. (get well soon my dear! you need the much-needed rest. )it doesnt make much sense but im gonna skip lecture too because she's not going. hehheheso i was blog-hopping out of boredom and stumbled upon a few girls' livejournal.geee pretty singaporeans can get really pretty.i dont care if its the makeup, their dress sense or the angle of the shot - there must be something in them that can have them looking gorgeous in those photos!sighhh i need a sharper face, longer legs and flatter tummy.i wanna look good in everything - from skinny jeans to frumpy dresses, ultra tiny shorts to oversized shades. what's the point of having money if you lack company to go shopping with and the figure to pull off most of what caught your eye?and what's worse than not having money in the first place?booooooooooooo materialism causes depression.
♥ my red umbrella
11:31
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
horoscopes freak me out sometimes.
Everyone's got an opinion (or two or three) about what you should do next, but only you know what's best. Ignore everybody's input (which you didn't ask for anyway) and connect with yourself as you revamp your game plan.
well, thank you to the people who tagged and to leong who called me last week.
im okay now, just got caught in what seemed like a quarter-life crisis la. haha
the decision's final.
i'll be applying for the Tourism Academy @ Sentosa soon.
i've talked to my dad and bro - for an exhausting 3hrs! - and i won them over.
i really should've done this a year ago at the exact same time; there was a sense of deja vu when we were sitting at the table and arguing our opinions - only i was more forceful this time.i listened intently, but also made sure i said my piece because i was confident and determined of my choice.i also cajoled my brother into visiting the website and gosh, i think my heart swelled when he looked at the course structure and said it was good. (swelled, cos i cant think of any other verb to describe. lol)he even commented "did you see the things you need to buy? quite cute leh."
he was referring to the chef's uniform and knife set btw.i dont think it'll be much of a pity that i'll be withdrawing from ntu.true enough, like wormie wong said - the degree is already there, within my reach. but now, im throwing it away for a diploma instead.i beg to differ.i think its not so much the degree that i cant bear to lose, its more of the prestige and status being in a local uni has brought me.
"where are you studying at?""ntu.""wahhhhhhh."
lol. i've got to admit it feels good when people associate university with intelligence.but i'd like to think im setting my sights far for now - im pursuing my dream. (sounds noble right! hahahhaha)imagine this:"where are you working at?""i just resigned from ritz carlton. starting work on monday at fullerton.""whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa."hhehhehee.it's a charmed life i'm leading - all i need is a car, more money, more clothes and i'm as contented as a pumpkin. =)
我知道我的未来不是梦。
♥ my red umbrella
17:55
Thursday, March 22, 2007
never felt more alone in my life.
just as i thought my life was in a perfect balance, something tipped the scales and everything came crashing down.
where are the lifelines i used to depend on so much?
i dont feel the love anymore.
i cant breathe.
and maybe if i keep very, very still, i'd vanish into thin air and it wouldnt matter at all.
♥ my red umbrella
22:09
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
assuming i'll live to a ripe old age of 80, i think im experiencing quarter-life crisis now.
yesterday morning, i was listening attentively to the lecture on Culture, when i was suddenly struck by a thought - why am i studying sociology?
it was really sudden. i started answering my own question inwardly, only to have more questions firing back at me. (my inquisitive mind never failed to amaze me. haha!)
well. i love sociology, no doubt about that.
but i realise that its not what i want or need professionally.
call me shallow, materialistic, practical, whatever - but sociology doesnt take me to where i want to be.
sure enough, the knowledge gained through this course widened my perspectives a whole lot.
i used to have a narrow view on the world, took things for granted and at surface level.
never pondered about what space communicates, what culture REALLY is about. (and i learnt, what i originally thought of culture is terribly shallow. lol)
but it is perhaps, too general.
a degree in sociology doesnt have industrial attachment - just FYP in which im supposed to do a research.
i need and i want practical skills.
i want to know how to manage an organization, market a product, sell an idea.
yes, no doubt sociology's broad curriculum may benefit in some way or another - but if i have to specialize after graduating, i might as well do it now.
instead of getting a 4 year honors degree, working 2 years and then going overseas to pursue another degree in hospitality - im looking at taking up a 2 year diploma in hospitality & tourism, working 2 years and then further my studies abroad.
i'd save 2 years of my life, though i've wasted 1.
i cant lament if nobody understands my POV.
but i thank the above that my parents are supportive.
my boy isnt, but its okay - having convince him makes me think thoroughly through the idea, and i can convince myself further.
im always doing such stunts to my parents.
once 2 years ago, another now.
if i am my mother, i think i'll faint.
♥ my red umbrella
17:55
i miss linhui.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
busy busy week i've had and thank goodness, it's THURSDAY!friday is my favourite day of the week because Communications rarely, if any, has assignments!and also, because the boy is usually out on fridays! hehhehei've got several presentations coming up and i don't know why, but the presentation practice i had in-class yesterday scared the shit out of me.goshhh i thought i could do better but i couldnt help trembling and stammering. arghhhhh what happened!in the face of stressful situations, life-squeezing deadlines and tough assignments, im reminded of sunshine. in times of loneliness, despair and sadness, i'd miss linhui.a totally random post.off to school now!IT'S THURSDAY, IT'S THURSDAY - THE WEEKEND IS A DAY AWAY!
THE WEEKEND, THE WEEKEND IS THE TIME FOR BOYS & GIRLS TO PLAY!
BUT IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE AND A BLOW OF THE NOSE,
AROUND THE CORNER COMES MONDAY.
SO JOIN ME NOW EVERYBODY, LETS CHANT
"MONDAY MONDAY GO AWAY!"
booooooooooooooooo
♥ my red umbrella
11:24
Saturday, March 10, 2007
felt slightly schizophrenic when i was replying all the tags in one go! lolyou see, i learnt in soci that humans are made up of multiple characters.. you are a different person to your parents, your siblings, your friends and even your sweetheart.the way you talk is different, the way you behave is different - basically, the way you portray yourself is different. hahhahaha okay lah im just trying to pretend that im a competent sociologist.anyway, i've been on a 3-day MC since last wed. i think it's the first time i'm on such a long MC!! coooooolthe boy's gonna be stuck in camp from 8am tmr till next sunday 10am. thats NINE whole days!and after a 2 day break, he'll be confined for another THIRTEEN days!ns rocks lah. my foot.
damnit who's gonna watch Stomp The Yard and 23 with me? =(sidenote: 300 is a great movie! it's action-packed and keeps you on the edge of your seat for the entire 117 minutes. okay lah, maybe for 102 minutes cos first 15mins is introduction! lol it's damn worth your $9.50.
AND after the movie, you'll wanna BE A SPARTAN and go "AHWOO!!"
Cue: SPARTANNNNNS!!
(raise spears and swords) "AHWOO! AHWOO!! AHWOOO!!!"
♥ my red umbrella
02:07
Monday, March 05, 2007
its back to school tomorrow!
damn.
it felt like the term break has just begun leh.
and the next holidays wont come until May.
MAY!
oh man. and of course, there're the absolutely mind-draining, energy-sapping, sleep-depriving EXAMS to go through first, from april 17th-27th.
but then i'll have 3 months break in between so guess i've got nothing to complain this time.
wonder what am i gonna do in that 3 months.
sounds a little too long for a break, but then again, one can never have enough of holidays. lol
and i've accepted 2 challenges thus far.
one is for 5 As (i think), the other is for the higher gpa.
the thing is, i realise only guys are desperate enough to do this.
you dont see girls going around challenging gpa.
it sounds stupid! hahhaha
but what the hell, im resorting to such methods to keep myself working so maybe, im the one not thinking straight. hehehhe
semester 2 starts tomorrow. (or is it term 2?)
either way, its time to buck upppppp! (cue: JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!)
weeeeehoo one more semester(or is it term) and wormiewong is coming to join me!
*** and may my fit come soon.hehhehe ***
♥ my red umbrella
00:34
Sunday, March 04, 2007
hokayy im back with an answer.i think i know what love is already.you know the quote:
"no guy is worth your tears. the one who is will never make you cry"?
with reference to that, now i think otherwise.while he may not make you cry, that doesnt mean you wont cry because of him.and i've come to realise that, perhaps when you cry because of this particular guy over and over again, and with each time, your feelings for this guy only deepen, that's love.
his words, actions or behaviour (or lack thereof) may break your heart, but you never thought of looking for brighter sunshine.because at that point of time, that was the only source of light you could see, and want.
while it may seem like a rational choice to leave the guy who makes you cry (all the time),because you can get along by yourself just fine, for all you know this guy might just be the one who'd make your life all the more colourful and fulfilling.and perhaps, when no amount of self-confidence can make up for your insecurity towards the relationship, that's love.or maybe, when merely the words he said are sufficient to make your heart contract, your knees go weak and set your tears aflow, that's love.and whoever said love is all sweetness, romance and euphoria,
i swear i'll box the teeth out of that person
and then slit the throat
so he/she can never say that again.
♥ my red umbrella
03:37
Thursday, March 01, 2007
i've got some mind-boggling questions that i cant answer and they're driving me crazy!what is 'love'?is it a feeling, a state of mind or an illusion, a make-belief?when one says he/she is in 'love', what does it actually mean?
how does one identify 'Love'?is it through feelings, actions or through words?
let's consider these scenarios:
1) i miss him, so i love him.
is it possible that you just miss the company/presence, just like an ordinary friend's, but it so happened that he's a male?
2) he's the perfect one - like a dream come true.is it possible that because he fits the epitome of your Ideal One, you make yourself believe you love him?
in other words, you are in love with your ideals and he merely brought them into reality.
some people may think THAT is what love is about - a dream come true.
but if that's the case, doesnt it mean that you were in love with your dream even before the guy appeared and he simply FITS the description?
hoho i sound quite philosophical eh.
but really, i feel like a confused kid.
i oughta learn to live in the present and stop worrying about details of the future.
it's making me pull my hair in desperation!
and i pity the One bugged with my never-ending-trying-to-be-philosophical questions. hehh
speaking of hair, im going for a haircut tmr!
but my pretty red highlights will be gone. *heartache*
♥ my red umbrella
16:56
