Thursday, November 29, 2007
someone or something must have been very jealous of all the happiness that have been surrounding me for the past few days, because suddenly, i find everything crashing down.
i still cannot recover my videos - they're gone for good.
the sense of loss is so heavy that i couldnt even sleep well without dreaming about the scenes.
my whole memory card is so empty now i feel disgusted by the thought of poking it into my computer.
fuck.
♥ my red umbrella
01:40
01:40
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
i kept thinking that because my birthday party was last saturday, ray's birthday last sunday, and my birthday's on the coming saturday - the week is gonna be awesome.
but something terrible happened earlier in the evening, and i've been trying to salvage the situation to no avail.
my camera's memory card died on me.
i was saving all my pictures into my laptop and suddenly, everything just went blank.
all my files were gone; the entire folder disappeared.
i have managed to save my photos one by one, because i had to resize every single one manually but my videos couldnt wait for me.
they just vanished.
im trying so hard to recover them now, thanks to my computer-genius friend and "Data Recovery" softwares.
i see the files back now, but i cant save them.
those that i managed to save, are partially damaged.
videos that lasted 2 mins 44secs are now cut into a few seconds.. omg why do i have to be so suey.
it was only seconds before i was gonna copy the videos into my computer but the files had to blank out.
i feel bloody depressed now. wtf
i hate sony.
♥ my red umbrella
03:29
03:29
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
大家好！
我是幸福的！！！hahhahaa!
i had the most memorable birthday party ever last saturday, painstakingly organised by wormie wong lin hui!
thank you huikeng, huiyu, peiling and daphne too - for helping out in the decorations, planning of games etc.
thank you viclimyunyun, for making me feel like the prettiest birthday girl on saturday, as well as changing your work day so you could attend my party! it was definitely a pleasant surprise! =D
thank you to the rest of you (though im not sure if you guys would come across this message lol) - layhwee, chinying, janice, myong, shawn and sky - for taking time off your busy schedules to come. your attendance was very much appreciated!
last but not least, thank you, my Ong Ah Pek - your presence added a magical touch to everything that night. =)
thank you, ALL of you! =)
i had wanted to post pictures up.. but there were SO MANY cameras and handphones flashing, clicking away that night - im sure i should have many more photos than i do now! lol so.. photos will be up in the next entry!
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my brother is arriving in singapore in approximately 3 hours' time. HURRAYYYY!!!!
♥ my red umbrella
18:13
18:13
Monday, November 19, 2007
omg i went for a haircut a couple of hours ago and i totally regret it now.
its so short and round and thin and damn ugly.
HOW TO CELEBRATE MY BDAY IN 5 DAYS LIKE THAT.
OMGOMG dieeeee =(((
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lindsay lohan is officially my new idol!! hehehhehe
yeahhh i know abt her getting involved with drugs (or is it alcohol) etc, but everyone makes mistakes mah and she's only 21 years old, celebrity or not.
and having been to the rehab hasnt stopped her from looking good! hahahhahaha
SHE IS SO STYLISH I LIKE HER LEGS!!!
omg i need to lose weight and grow longer hair FAST.
i am so sad now. =(((((((
okay lahhhh this is a totally bimbotic entry HAHA! bye! XD
♥ my red umbrella
17:49
17:49
Sunday, November 18, 2007
weeeee it's been so long since i last updated!
went for a day-trip to malaysia with my parents yesterday.
our main aim was to visit this famous shi fu who is able to tell your fortune using poker cards and advice from an indian goddess.
the bus was packed with about 30 aunties/ah peks - omg i dont want to go into that.
so yes, my parents were supposed to have their fortune told - but the shi fu ended up giving them advice more on their health instead.
it was more of a warning - something adverse would happen to the both of them.
i was so shocked when i heard it, i almost cried..
so anyway, i had my turn too but it wasnt on fortune.
it was about my studies, abit on my life.
hehhe and the goddess behind the shi fu had him to knock my head! lol
i learnt alot about myself.. and of course, about singaporean aunties and ah peks too. hahahhaa
a lesson learnt.
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my family (save for my brother who's not here physically) is officially addicted to PRAWNING! hehhehehe
it all began with a dinner that ended too early on a saturday - and i refused to go home.
so i suggested we go fishing/prawning and our initial plan was to WATCH people do it but alas, we got 2 rods ourselves and we've been hooked ever since! hehhehehe
we're actually going again today, after dinner! lol
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my birthday is in 13 days!
auntie carmen is coming back in 11 days!
my brother is coming back in 9 days!
ray's bday is in 7 days!
my bday celebration with the lovelies in 6 days!
YAYYYYY!!!!!!! =D =D
♥ my red umbrella
18:09
18:09
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
i finally finished the book "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom, about 2 months after ray bought it for me! hahaha
For One More Day is a relatively light-read.
the story is broken up into various random episodes of the main character's life, so you dont really have to sit and read the entire book at one go to understand the gist of it.
all the way through to the last chapter, i thought the book was a disappointment.
language is simple, the events meaningful but not deep - i was merely reading about an ordinary man's life and his regrets.. definitely not what i had expected.
but then again, he's not my favourite author for nothing! hahahahah
i came to the last chapter, and there was something about the way the story ends - i teared. (on the bus! lol)
i finished the book, gave it some thought on the way home and goodness, i cried.
because i thought about MY mother.
if i were to categorise my personal accounts into "Times I Stood Up for My Mother" and "Times I Didnt", i'd probably fill up the latter.
there is one isolated memory i have of my mum, which dates back a few years ago when i was still in secondary school.
it was about 1am i think, and i was doing math alone in my room.
my mum came into the room and nagged at me, asking me to go to sleep.
i was probably frustrated at the amount of work i had undone, and i vented my anger on her. i shouted stuff like "still got so much homework left, how to sleep! you do for me lah! go away lah!"
she quietly closed the door.
minutes later, she came in again and said gently,"i warmed a bottle of chicken essence for you. it's in the kitchen. drink it before you sleep okay? goodnight."
i felt so guilty after she closed the door that i cried while solving A Maths.
and i still cried when i got reminded of the incident many years later.
what i learnt from the book is that, so often, we look up to our father for all the contributions he makes to the family, that we'd conveniently neglect the mother.
my mother is a very patient lady.
she has the tendency to show biasness towards my brother, and i often scream at her for that.
i forget that on many, many occasions that i've been bullied, she'd stand up fiercely for me.
there was once she created such a huge commotion in Ikea Cafe, just because the auntie thought i was filling up my soft drink for the second time and my mum was demanding an apology on my behalf.
because the story involved death and regrets, i thought about how would i feel towards my mum when one day, she's no longer around to make me laugh at her silly antics or there to gossip with me.
that's when i cried..
i take her for granted - i scream at her without restraint and when im feeling better, just resume normalcy without any apology.
terrible daughter, i know.
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i had a two-hour talk-cock session online with my brother last night.
i thought about it too, and i dont think we'll ever chat like that when he's at home.
hmm i'll blog about my brother another time, when im free-er. haha!
going for my group discussion lo...
and i have this immature, lazy and incompetent group member who irritates me to no end. SIGHHHH
♥ my red umbrella
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