Friday, April 27, 2007
it's 3.30am on friday now, and im wide awake.
because i've been hit by nostalgia! ahhhhhhh
had intended to write a letter a few days ago to an old friend of mine whom i've known since primary 5, but i procrastinated till 2am earlier and finally got it done. =)
jackyln isnt just a friend whom i've known; she was my best friend in primary 5 and 6.though we were posted to the same secondary school, some stupid misunderstanding reduced us to mere hi-bye acquaintances for the next 4 years.and then we resumed contact in JC, but it wasnt regular - several exchanges of hand-written letters and occasional meet-ups only.but somehow after the As, we met up very frequently.we'd play badminton, go for taitai tea-break sessions (usually her mum's muffins) and of course, weekday afternoon shopping trips which means we get to avoid crowds and strut in style instead of squeezing with kids. hahhahhaaa very sweet and cute friend she is!
she'd often bring me home-baked goodies when we meet up, cos her mum loves baking and jackyln knows i've got a sweet tooth..
when im with her, there isnt a need to be self-conscious - we'd discuss abt body fats & tactics to hide them etc etc. lol
things were so simple then, we'd gossip, laugh and get all excited over trivial things.. we'd talk about being old ladies and still going for tea together...
but as always, singapore's terrific education system got in the way of us enjoying the finer things in life and ever since we were caught up with uni, we seldom met up.
and i miss her so much now. =(
so after i finished the 3-page letter which i wrote on cutesy papers, i spent half an hour trying to dig for my autograph book which had her add.
and i have all these boxes & tins of letters, photos, notes which i keep for memory's sake.
that's when nostalgia struck me hard.
i always keep snippets of my life so that in the future, i could look back and recall fondly what was life like back then.
i'd keep photos, ticket stubs, letters, notes, cards.. anything that'd remind me of the past.
so i saw the photos i took with my first 3 months PJC clique and the numerous postcards they wrote to me.. photos with cherylchew.. and all the other notes/postcards/letters my friends wrote to me... i also flipped through my autograph book.. and of all time, Colin Raye's Love Me had to play on the radio.
so i teared. lol. i miss those times so much.
it's such a pity that i've lost contact with those lovely people whom i cherished so much at one time... so im gonna start writing letters!
i miss the times when 'what course are you taking', 'where are you studying', 'i've got not enough clothes to wear', 'i need money to go shopping' etc didnt matter - everyone was studying the same thing, had the same goal in mind (to just graduate), wore the same things and werent the least bothered about fashion or makeup or money.
"when you look into the past and discover how much you have changed, the real shock comes when you cant recall who you started out as."
omg. totally heartbreaking.
if i've got a time machine, i'd choose to return to the times of genuine laughter and concern - when life was all about here and now, instead of having to worry about what's beyond our control - the future.
what'd i give to go back. =\
♥ my red umbrella
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