Saturday, November 11, 2006
ahhhhhh i hate the time of the month.
i always get mood swings and i'll feel terribly lonely.
cramps got so bad yesterday that on the way to jp, i felt like throwing up on the bus.
ended up yawning and yawning to control myself.
alighted the bus, was rushing to the taxi stand when i got stopped by a street surveyor.
apparently he thought im a secondary school student. (wth.)
then i was answering his questions.. until the cramps starting cramping real bad and it got to my head
i talked rubbish.. and honestly couldnt think straight.
"whats your name?""ntu.""err.. okay.."
"why were u not interested in the saving scheme the last time?"
"cos im not feeling well. i mean, i wasnt interested."
and then i apologised and told him i have to go cos im really not feeling well
he asked me to write my number down, and my hand was shaking
as i walked away, my mind was in a swirl
i hit my head a few times to gain consciousness.. i was wearing a jacket cos it was drizzling
and i started sweating profusely
then the point came when i really felt like i was going to faint soon.
i sat down and called my dad immediately cos i was afraid that if i faint, nobody will recognise me and they wont help me!
so my dad came and as i walked to the bus stop in the rain, my legs were too weak to even be lifted above the ground to avoid puddles
he came, i plopped down into the seat and he said my face was green.
my legs were weak, hands shivering, i wanted to puke and my lower abdomen was going to explode.
during the entire scene before my dad came, i felt bloody lonely.
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wanted to make it a bang, invite everyone i know and just party the night away.
but come to think of it, maybe i shouldnt.
if i matter to them, they'll come to me. right?
now i dont feel like doing anything anymore.
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and i miss my a01 girlies very much...
♥ my red umbrella
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